Slept on it....

I took a step back and slept on my thoughts from yesterday.
After reading the post again, I thought some people may get the idea that I am out for revenge. That is not the case. The advice for anyone willing to listen was not to be taken as I am going after someone else, it was to tell people to watch their own backs and watch out they may be next. Now, I did not get on the Paranoid bus that left from Conspiracy Station, just be more vigilant. Beyond money, beyond family, beyond friends you have yourself. Keep yourself happy without hurting others, keep your eyes open and you should be ok.
All I was trying to say in the anger filled moments last night was to make sure you are sharing the same reality as everyone else.
"You won't like me when I'm angry" That is one of my favorite lines. It's from the TV show the Incredible Hulk. I don't like me when I am angry. I am a bit of a control freak, not that I want to control anyone else. I don't like to be out of control. Everyone has the point where they just get beyond themselves. I reached that point yesterday.
See, rants are just that. Getting beyond yourself. You vent and get it out. I vented and it felt good. I spoke to my father about things this morning. He had some good advice. I love that man. We shared some stories and laughed. Laughing is something that this family does a lot. In the face of fear, death and other parts of life's BS.

Smiling Faces, Smiling Faces tell lies and I got proof - The Temptations 1971

I am mad as hell. I have been stabbed in the back and my character has been besmirched. I have been slandered. The bad thing about it is that I can't really say anything back just yet. It comes from sources I didn't expect. Just like the song says, "Beware of the handshake that hides the snake"
It's hard to believe someone would do something so lame and not have the guts to say it to my face. I come from a place where if you have something to say to someone, you say it to them, but I have integrity, I have character and I want to believe people are good. Shame on me.
I am ranting tonite. I know good people are out there, but unwittingly I have let some people who now don't deserve my respect pull the wool over my eyes. I didn't land on Plymouth Rock, it landed on me. (That made me smile) back to the rant...
My advice for anybody willing to listen...
1. Watch your back
2. Watch your back
3. Watch your back
4. No matter what you think...you are next.
5. Rant every once in a while it does a body good.
It sucks that my first post back has to be a rant that people won't get or they will think "He's lost it" Well I have not lost it. I am okay. In fact I think I gained something. My eyes have been opened. Most people have never really seen me angry. It usually take a lot to get me there. Well, I have been f**ked with and now I am pissed. My next course of action is not as clear as I would like. For a long time I have been a bit of a planner. Somewhere along the line I let the planner go away. Well time to bring it back. Time to take action. I made a promise and I am going to stick to it. It may have been a stupid promise, but I will honor it and let it run it's course. Stay tuned the ride could really bumpy....